You’re not good enough. You’re a bad friend. You’re not good at your job. You’re wasting time. You’re a waste of time.You’re so needy. What are you doing with yourself? Why would you say that? What if they hate it? Why can’t you have your shit together? You’re going to get anxious and because you’re going to get anxious, you’re going to mess everything up. You’re a fraud. Just good at faking it. You’re letting everybody down. No one here likes you.
You’re not OK, you’re messing everything up.
You’re totally OK, stop being such a baby.”
Sarah Schuster – The Mighty
I read this article very recently and suddenly every bad day, bad thought, every bout of low esteem I’ve ever experienced suddenly made sense.
I have high functioning anxiety or what looks like over-thinking. It doesn’t happen to me all the time but it presents itself really strangely. If I think a movie is going to sell out while I’m standing in the line, I will panic to the point of distraction. I will imagine the person in front of me buying 50 tickets and us just having to go home and it will make me frozen with anxiety. It’s ludicrous. It’s not like anyones is going to die but I can’t help it.
I also regret most of the things I say. After every social engagement, I go back over everything I said and I analyse my words and how people responded. ‘Was that inappropriate? Did that sound bitchy? Did I say something I wasn’t supposed to? Does that person hate me now?’
It’s exhausting being an over-thinker so this week on Straight and Curly, Kelly and I tackle the topic of being hard-core over-thinkers and how we deal with it.
Are you an over-thinker? Or do you think you have high functioning anxiety?
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